Loneliness has been eroding slowly slowly my heart.
Slowly but already I think I nearly died of cold in the street.
I am who I am exhausted after that would have been defeated in a battle that already exist they invent for myself.
All eyes staring in the look of scorn and cynicism will be a decision which I think is right but me,Kill some of my heart.
Cuz
I will finally way they do right for me but I can't unite with my
soul and can kill the taste is hard to sink I took a breath.
Don't know what I choose if I like this,who knows what I'll do graffiti if it is flowing in my body.
I don't know what I'm looking actually,still I touch,was still crawling in the dark.
This is the form of a blind man would be a state and wasn't able to take a decision that was right in his life.
Here I will always feel a deep void in the distance.
There would be no way out for those who like me.
There will be a helping hand if they resembles a similar thought of me.
And it's time I can only sat in an uncertainty, just looking,just close out crying, just will infuse the deepest regret.
And it's time to think of a curse that will not disappear if the sea continues in this way.
And here I am creating an empty space for my own life.
Linkin Park ROBOT BOY
You say you're not going to fight
Because no one will fight for you
And you think there's not enough love
And no one to give it to
And you're sure you've hurt for so long
You've got nothing left to lose
So you say you're not going to fight
Because no one will fight for you
You say the weight of the world
Has kept you from letting go
And you think compassion's a flaw
And you'll never let it show
And you're sure you've hurt in a way
That no one will ever know
But someday the weight of the world
Will give you strength to go
Hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
Just hold, on the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
Because no one will fight for you
And you think there's not enough love
And no one to give it to
And you're sure you've hurt for so long
You've got nothing left to lose
So you say you're not going to fight
Because no one will fight for you
You say the weight of the world
Has kept you from letting go
And you think compassion's a flaw
And you'll never let it show
And you're sure you've hurt in a way
That no one will ever know
But someday the weight of the world
Will give you strength to go
Hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
Just hold, on the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
ABSTRACK OF LIFE
Those who say the truth.
Those that say about the error.
Those that say about something that can beat a black and white.
Those who said he would keep his promise.Those who said of an alignment.
Those who say about life is always like a wheel. Is it true that they have been feeling ?
Have they felt the right thing, they them know what is right ?
Did they know will be punished a mistake ?
Nothing they ever do wrong in their lives ?
Have a sense of winning something they are know that white can't beat a black ?
Did they know about where the true colors ?
Not the 'black and white that fade to white then to black hit dirty ?
Has the extent to which they walk so they can know that straight ?
Did they feel the rotation of the wheel ? Them know if it was pinned at the bottom line ?
Life is not about words and reading that if you tell me.
But about taking the meaning that has been true once you get ...
Those that say about something that can beat a black and white.
Those who said he would keep his promise.Those who said of an alignment.
Those who say about life is always like a wheel. Is it true that they have been feeling ?
Have they felt the right thing, they them know what is right ?
Did they know will be punished a mistake ?
Nothing they ever do wrong in their lives ?
Have a sense of winning something they are know that white can't beat a black ?
Did they know about where the true colors ?
Not the 'black and white that fade to white then to black hit dirty ?
Has the extent to which they walk so they can know that straight ?
Did they feel the rotation of the wheel ? Them know if it was pinned at the bottom line ?
Life is not about words and reading that if you tell me.
But about taking the meaning that has been true once you get ...
TERLALU JAUH...
Terlau jauh untuk
melangkah.
Tapi sudah terlanmbat pula
ketika ingin berhenti.
Ingin melangkah tapi ragu
kearah yang mana akan hendak dicapai.
Ingin Bertanya tapi tak
tahu pada siapa ?
Terlalu lelah jika
berlajut..
Tapi begitu gelap sehingga
pandangan telah tertutup kabut.
Inginkan nafas
sejenak,inginkan lelap sejenak.
Terlalu sayu akan semua
akan jadi kelabu.
Terlalu jauh aku terlempar
dalam rasa yang ragu.
Terlalu jauh aku menuggu
dalam seribu bisu.
Terlalu juh lanhkah salah
ku terseret sesat yang begitu kaku membatu.
Inginkan hati ini untuk
berunding tentang semua ini memjadi palsu.
Tapi sudah terlalu jauh
dan terlalu lama.
Percuma saja ingin kurawat
mulainya dari awal.
Karena ini sudah membeku
dalam ragu,bisu dan ketidaktahuanku
Tentang tujuanku yang
sebenarnya…
Untitled
High place far above.
Fly away high and sometimes low to the ground almost trace.
But he never stepped on
Even if he would not trail for long ..
Maybe a second maybe a minute after that he flew away again from Me and My little world that never miss the quiet.
Then I left behind Me in solitude.
But I try to believe in my heart that sometimes wrapped in netting suspicion.
If He has flaps to protect me is left in a vacuum,
I try though sometimes mind and my heart is always opposed to this.
When he flew condescending smile I give him.
My little space to share my heart for him.
If you ask most of my heart for anyone, honestly I'm confused.
Too much to fill my heart space and possibly also those in my heart never knew they had been framed in my heart.
But I do not want any treasonable to himself.
Cuz also do not know will betray with whom.
Let me wrap it all in quiet, in solitude when there is a passionate desire therein.
There will I show my desire to him,let it be when he looks at Me or when he hears my breath pulled thing he realized everything I feel.
Cuz they cant pour all the sense in speech and behavior,or even writing.
Fly away high and sometimes low to the ground almost trace.
But he never stepped on
Even if he would not trail for long ..
Maybe a second maybe a minute after that he flew away again from Me and My little world that never miss the quiet.
Then I left behind Me in solitude.
But I try to believe in my heart that sometimes wrapped in netting suspicion.
If He has flaps to protect me is left in a vacuum,
I try though sometimes mind and my heart is always opposed to this.
When he flew condescending smile I give him.
My little space to share my heart for him.
If you ask most of my heart for anyone, honestly I'm confused.
Too much to fill my heart space and possibly also those in my heart never knew they had been framed in my heart.
But I do not want any treasonable to himself.
Cuz also do not know will betray with whom.
Let me wrap it all in quiet, in solitude when there is a passionate desire therein.
There will I show my desire to him,let it be when he looks at Me or when he hears my breath pulled thing he realized everything I feel.
Cuz they cant pour all the sense in speech and behavior,or even writing.
Let slowly he realizes all
of these feelings.
While I know this will be long.
Cuz we will never be the same.
Yes because I'm in my loneliness and just make friends with lonely people in the circle He's always the same group that always united to him.
He walked with the march of the mighty wings I walked with a limp step.
He stared with a piercing stare wistful gaze I saw the premises.
But maybe there the same sense of longing .
Although not knowing what a huge miss, or miss a small cleft.
Yes I do not know.
And now I saw it flying high in cicle haunt me that I had my serve .
I gave He smiles He replied with sharp eyes .
Trying to convince .
But believe it or not my heart .
Just me and God has the answer .
Yeah Fly high And You continue to look at Me .
Try to convince me,maybe this is the challenge for you .
Convince heart .....
While I know this will be long.
Cuz we will never be the same.
Yes because I'm in my loneliness and just make friends with lonely people in the circle He's always the same group that always united to him.
He walked with the march of the mighty wings I walked with a limp step.
He stared with a piercing stare wistful gaze I saw the premises.
But maybe there the same sense of longing .
Although not knowing what a huge miss, or miss a small cleft.
Yes I do not know.
And now I saw it flying high in cicle haunt me that I had my serve .
I gave He smiles He replied with sharp eyes .
Trying to convince .
But believe it or not my heart .
Just me and God has the answer .
Yeah Fly high And You continue to look at Me .
Try to convince me,maybe this is the challenge for you .
Convince heart .....
IN BETWEEN
Between black
and white.
Between flying meet tangled circles.
Round and round,waving.
Between awake and asleep.
Between death and want to live.
Between dying at the end of death waiting to end.
Between able and will die resignation.
Between tired and want to continue again in tracing the road ...
Between hope and diluting full of hope.
Between awareness n the road deaths.
between fight the battle of mind and heart.
Between crying and begging.
Between my soul and your soul.
Between my night with the stars and your night in a flash of lanterns.
Between what I want and what you want.
Between You and Me ...
Between flying meet tangled circles.
Round and round,waving.
Between awake and asleep.
Between death and want to live.
Between dying at the end of death waiting to end.
Between able and will die resignation.
Between tired and want to continue again in tracing the road ...
Between hope and diluting full of hope.
Between awareness n the road deaths.
between fight the battle of mind and heart.
Between crying and begging.
Between my soul and your soul.
Between my night with the stars and your night in a flash of lanterns.
Between what I want and what you want.
Between You and Me ...
LONELY FLAKES
Loneliness...
This is not the case in a defeat,difficulty,but this is an option that you want the road to peace without nuisance and disturbance
without complicated person who goes wild in a thousand and one
kinds of problems are common and strange.
There's only me who own a walk to
enjoy the wind and the air that caressed myself.
There's only me in my
loneliness so enjoy,cuz I was too tired in a full circle problem.
In solitude in
just me, quiet, and theshadow that always follows me faithfully without
fatigue,without a husky voice.
Yeah there's really only me very grateful for
this.
This is one life that I enjoy in my hand.I see human beings fighting each
other,bloody,stabbing each other,judging each other,without regret that there
is only horror in their faces.
Let me sit watching who is greatest and who's a
loser.
I just sat and smiled, but soon I closed my eyes I do not want it to
interfere eternal.
My serenity.
Let me down,sit in
quiet and solitude
Loneliness...
My
shadow my face in the glass there is only a grim smile,no bright lights that
shine.
There
is only strokes angry, full of emptiness.
I hate my loneliness, I cant for my
weight,I cant give if I'm happy,cant do nothing.
Is this the curse of God
....?
God sent me to the place filled with warm greetings,sweet smile,a
comforting hug.
I dont know will be wrong and correct me if I'm alone.
My shadow is not
unusual to tell a truth that will do or a mistake I have done.
I'm
tired of my loneliness without any rest,with no foothold for me because I only
own one and.I'm tired and numb.
Loneliness...
Sometimes I'm trapped
in two wishes.
Crowded and warm embrace and seek quiet silence.
Sometimes it is
not I understand what you want yourself this.
When I was in a noisy I feel
fit,dont know which one I should listen to and when I'm inside I like drifting
aimlessly not who will greet me when I fall.
Where is mine?Shut himself in a
deserted or joined in a lively without me know if anyone who received me when
there....
LINKIN PARK MY DECEMBER
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things that I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things that I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things that I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things that I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things that I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things that I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to
LINKIN PARK LEAVE OUT ALL THE REST
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
SEJENAK TERLELAP
Malam
telah tinggi diatas,
Udara
membeku.
Embun
pun mengeras dalam celah daun.
Bunga
juga terberat dalam embun.
Kisut resah dalam hati.
Entah
apa yang terjadi sedikit pun aku tak mengerti.
Aku
hanya mereka-reka.
Hanya
menebak dalam lapisan yang runtuh.
Heran
sungguh dalam kesuraman ada air.
Seperti
aku yang buta tapi bernyawa.
Seperti
aku yang bisu tapi ingin berkicau.
Sudahi
Tuhan akan bingungku ini.
Hati
kecil terlalu kacau..
Tak
ada Doa yang mengalun.
Hanya
ada kesuh yang bernyanyi dan bergerak.
Tak
ada tangis hanya marah.
Kaku
membatu hatiku.
Tak
ada tempat untuk mencair.
Yang
ada hanya gumpalan yang semakin keras dan membatu.
Keras,kaku,tak
berlekuk.
Jika
bisa berkirim surat
pada Tuhan.
Kutuliskan
permintaanku Pada Mu penguasa Api.
Permintaan
agar aku sejenak Tenang.
Sejenak
agar terlelap…
LELAH
Ketika resahku tertemu suram.
Pasrahkan hatiku akan pesan yang tersirat.
Tercurah air mata dalam wadah yang tak terjamah.
Jurang terlalu jauh untukku menjatuhkan diri.
Ruang terlalu kosong ketika ku terbaring.
Hatiku tebelah dalam irama sunyi.
Debu terasa kasar kala Ia menyentuh kulitku.
Rasaku kandas akan rasa yang lelah.
Serat-serat tubuhku sudah layu.
Tak ada lagi jejak dalam maya Imajinasiku.
Semua terasa kaku dan pilu.
Tak tahu bagai hantu rasa llelah tampak enggan berlalu.
Lalu langkah semakin pasif.
Suhu pun sudah tak mengarah searaha bandul jam.
Menanti aku menanti masih bisu.
Tak terjelas oleh waktu tak tertafsir didalam dimensi.
Inilah aku dalam catatatan sunyi kinni dan mungkin tiba nanti.
tertatih-tatih letih.
Hanya melayang dalam riapan hujan.
Batin tetrtatih letih badan tersanggah dalam lelah.
Tepukul-pukul dalam sebuah hampa cahaya.
Teperangkap dalam bisu.
Terpasung akan buta.
Terpatri akan lelah yang tak mengakhir.
Ya,Itulah aku…
Lelah……
Sudah dan telah Lelah.
THE BEATLES YESTERDAY
Yesterday
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Suddenly
I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh, yesterday
Came suddenly
Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
(hum to "I believe in yesterday")
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Suddenly
I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh, yesterday
Came suddenly
Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday
(hum to "I believe in yesterday")
MONTLEY CRUE HOME SWEET HOME
You know I'm a dreamer
But my heart's of goldI had to run away high
So I wouldn't come home low
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they were always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone
Take me to your heart
Feel me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm comin' off this
Long & winding road
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight, tonight
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
You know that I've seen
Too many romantic dreams
Up in lights, fallin' off the silver screen
My heart's like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometimes nothing keeps me together at the seams
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight, tonight
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home
Home Sweet Home
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home Sweet Home
Yeah
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home Sweet Home
MUNGKIN(JIKA AKU)
Mungkin
ketika aku telah dingin..
Sorotmu
akan menghangat…
Mungkin
jika aku telah kaku sinarmu akan redup
Mungkin
jika aku mmembisu..
Suaramu
akan merintiih pelan..
Mungkin
jika aku lumpuh
Engkau
tidaka akan mengejarku..
Mungkin
jika tanganku puntung..
Kau tidak
akan menggapai diriku lagi..
Mungkin
jika aku berhenti..
Engkaupun
akan pergi..
Mungkin
jika aku tidak memulai..
Engkau
tidak akan datang…
Mungkin
jika aku tenang dalam rewngkuhanmu…
Engkau
tidak mengganas dijiwaku…
Ya
Mungkin jika aku tiada.
Engkau
pun akan lenyap.
TOLONG AKU KAWAN
Aku kalut tergulung dalam energi lapisan rasa yang tak
menentu.
Tak merasa aman akan fantasi yang patah akan arah.
Tak kuasa menahan aliran tangis dimata.
Aku tidak bisa nenujumkan diri aku bukan cenayang tak paham
aku akan rasa singkat sakitku..
Kawan bantulah aku.
Kawan bantulahlah aku.
Menjawab Tanya dalam pusaran arahan yang tak tentu arahanya.
Hanya engkau yang dapat menjawab rasa kalut yang menggelayut
dalam hati dan pikiran.
Terlalu jauh terlalu lelah untuk ku mencerna apa yang terdapat
didalam pikiranku.
Aku butuh engkau Kawan..
Tolonglah aku sebeluma aku sesat terlalu jauh..
Tolonglah aku sebelum aku tersingkir dari dunia.
Aku sangat takut dikala malam menautkan badan yang penuh
parut.
Aku sarat akan hangat dikala pagi akan mengambil subuh..
Tolonglah aku Kawan
Jangan sampai aku hilang tersapu debu tanah yang gusar…
Jiwaku gulana dalam saat ini..
Tak ada yang ingin disampingku..
Hanya engkau kawan yanag kuharap duduk dengar suramku…
LINKIN PARK NOT ALONE
I break down, fear is sinking in
The cold comes, racing through my skin
Searching for a way to get to you
Through the storm you...
Go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You are not alone
With arms up, stretched into the sky
With eyes like, echoes in the night
Hiding from the hell that you've been through
Silent one, you...
Go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You Go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You are not alone
You go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You Go, giving up your home
Go, you are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
Dari seorang Teman
Senja kala itu kulihat seorang gadis,dimuka pantai menatap jauh dan sayu…
Besar ingin hatiku untuk bertanya.Kududuk disampingnya pelan kubuka kata-kata untuk mendekat tentang sesuatu yang melekat dipikirannya…
Tersenyum Ia padaku sesaat aku sedikit malu bias kutebak dia tahu apa yang dipikiranku…
Aku sedang menanti jawabnya pasti tanpa ragu
.Menanti cintaku yang jauh dibawa elang yang terbang tinggi dan ini bukan dalam hitungan hari…
Gadis yang kuat pikirku…
Dengan senyum ia berkata aku tidak kuat tapi cinta yang kupunya yang kuat,,
Aku tersenyum dan sedikit merasa dia sedikit terkurung dalam cerita wanita harus setia ketika pria berjanji untuk menjaga…
Pasti orang berpikir jika aku bodoh….?
Tapi apa yang dapat kulakukan jika dia membawa titipan cintaku dan Aku tetap menanti agar dia mengembalikan titipanku itu.Ya aku hanya bisa menanti…
Lalu ia menatap jauh lagi…..
Terbersit pikirku akan sebuah pertanyaan..
Apakah Wanita harus setia jika pria memberi janji dan apakah Wanita bodoh ketika ia menanti,bagaimana jika itu palsu….?
Dia menatapku…
Temanku bagaimana jika aku bilang orang yang memberi janji palsu itu adalah yang tidak mempunyai kekuatan karena hanya biasa berpalsu sementara orang yang menanti adalah orang yang mempunyai keteguhan ,kekuatan,ketegaran tidak ada yang bodoh dalam penantian..
Semua akan kau tuai walau hasilnya tidak akan selau manis..?
tidak selalu manis..?
Kawan ketika kita membeli Jeruk tidaklah rasanya selalu manis tapi itulah jeruk kamu tidak akan tahukan jika kamu belum pernah memakannya tapi nanti pasti kamu belajar cara memilih jeruk yang manis agar kamu tidak jeruk yang rasanya asam lagi.jawabnya...
Kamu pernah menunggu atau pernah dikecewakan oleh orang yang membuat menunggu..?Aku mengalami keduanya...
dan sekarang pasti kamu bisa memilih mana orang yang tepat buat kamu tunggu,cobalah jangan menutup akan dirimu mendapat kekecewaan....
Rasa pahit itu akan pergi dan manis itu tidak akan habis.
Matahari telah tegelicir kala itu...
kami berpisah,ya ada rasa baru didalam hatiku tentang harapan yang berbuah manis.
Kamu benar teman..
A lie
Yesterday after watching Body Of LIES.
The more open my
eyes is not about Leonardo Caprio which look cool but cuz it tells a lie.es,a
lie that can be done by anyone, anytime,anywhere,And that its a series of life
may not be evasive about it though a reason to do that there are a variety.ie
was not counted as dust may go,disguised form,but he will not be lost like
dust that would go if the wind swept.Yeah if there is a lie toward the former
that are difficult to swept though it was swept by storm.Nothing will be lost
and still form in the name that is a lie.
And once we send a lie to someone ?
Hentikan Sejenak
Aku ingin kau
lupakan sejenak amarah yang ada…
Aku ingin hentikan
nafas yang penuh amarah ini…
Karena aku lelah
berlari darimu…
Kaki ku sudah tidak
mampu menjauh dari bayang amarahmu..
Mohon hentikan
sejenak….
Mohon Hentikan
sejenak kabut jelaga kemarahanmu
Berikan aku
tembuskan aku cahaya agar aku melihat saudaraku..
Berikan aku
sedikit saja Dian agar aku melihat kemana kau akan melangkahkan kaki
Mataku ini
beranjak buta karena jelagamu…
Mohon hentikan
sejenak
Mohon Hentikan
sejenak semua debu-debu asingmu
Karena nafasku
singkat akan panjang…
Nafasku terlalu
layu untuk berjuang jika kau tiupkan terus menerus debu-debu asing dan bising….
Tolonhlah aku…
Mohon hentikan ini
sejemak….
Mohon hentikan sejenak dentumanmu kemarahanmu..
Agar kupingku bisa
mendengarkan ayahku..
Tolonglah hentikan
sejemak amarahmu..
Tidurlah engkau …
Tegakah dirimu
melihat perpisahan dalam bentuk sedih..
Tegahkah engkau….
Hentikan ini
sejenak ..
Karena aku yakin
engkau pun lelah dalam marahmu..
Jangan kau
paksakan lagi awan kegundahan…
Hentikn sejenak
beri sisi aman..
Agar engkau malam
ini bisa terlelap
STING SHAPE OF MY HEART
He deals the cards as a meditation
And those he plays never suspect
He doesn't play for the money he wins
He doesn't play for respect
He deals the cards to find the answer
The sacred geometry of chance
The hidden law of probable outcome
The numbers lead a dance
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
He may play the jack of diamonds
He may lay the queen of spades
He may conceal a king in his hand
While the memory of it fades
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape, the shape of my heart
And if I told you that I loved you
You'd maybe think there's something wrong
I'm not a man of too many faces
The mask I wear is one
Those who speak know nothing
And find out to their cost
Like those who curse their luck in too many places
And those who fear are lost
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape of my heart
Thats not the shape, thats not the shape of my heart
And those he plays never suspect
He doesn't play for the money he wins
He doesn't play for respect
He deals the cards to find the answer
The sacred geometry of chance
The hidden law of probable outcome
The numbers lead a dance
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
He may play the jack of diamonds
He may lay the queen of spades
He may conceal a king in his hand
While the memory of it fades
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape, the shape of my heart
And if I told you that I loved you
You'd maybe think there's something wrong
I'm not a man of too many faces
The mask I wear is one
Those who speak know nothing
And find out to their cost
Like those who curse their luck in too many places
And those who fear are lost
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape of my heart
Thats not the shape, thats not the shape of my heart
SAINT LOCO FALLIN
I never felt like this before
Between us there is something more
U gave me love that's true
I know now my heart beats for u
I feell u in the wind
The rain and the sun
And all my burdens gone
I won't let you go
Never let you go
Fallin.. I'm fallin..
I'm fallin for u
Fallin.. I'm fallin..
Check it
It --- from my heart
yeah
im break down to the --- yawh
i'm a dessert desperate for the fall of rain
I'm a wound try to heal now can u cover this pain
Just like the prodigal son running back to his father
Like a child that cry for the love of a mother
I'm knocking on u door
I'm calling for your name
Just let me in so I will never be the same
Please take away all this pleasure from my shoulder
Show me the way to find the ultimate pleasure
SUDAHI KEMARAHAN MERAPI
Terlalu kaku dini hari ini
diriku.Mataku tak kunjung terpejam.Hmmmm entahlah mengapa.Kamar ku pun Begitu sunyi dan dingin…
Ini agak aneh rasanya tak biasanya rasa ini menelusup hingga
menusuk..
Mungkinkah karena peristiwa beberapa hari yang lalu yang
membuat ku merasa adalah orang yang paling bodoh dan paling tak beruntung didunia….
Tapi entahlah aku kurang yakin akan rasa itu…
Terdengar sayupan azan subuh memanggil
para muslim,tapi aku masih terbaring dalam dingin..
Ku nyalakan televisi,nanar mataku kala itu
Ya tuhan kulihat ibu Tua yang digendong tubuhnya memutih
terselimuti abu Merapi..
Sejak beberapa hari yang lalu Merapi meronta,tapi tidaklah
ku sangka jika ada akibat dalam bentuk ini..
Ya Tuhan inilah kekesalan kecil
dari hati mu..
Tapi mengapa harus Sang tua renta yang sengsara,mengapa
tidak kau titipkan pada mereka yang berkhianat didalam kotak kaca dihiruk pikuk
ibu kota..
Tuhan Ku yakini Ibu Pertiwi terisak akan ini..
Tak satu kulihat Tua renta yang terekam oleh kamera ada
beberapa dan ditambah dengan rontaan anak kecil yang meraung terpisah dengan
Ayah dan Bunda…
Begitu gelisah hatiku,walaupun sanak saudara sedarah Ayah
tidak disana ,tetapi nyeri akannya sangat menusuk..
Teringat ku akan beberapa Teman
yang kukenal dari dunia maya yang berasal dari Tanah Merapi,Apa gerangan kabar
mereka,Apakah ada tempat yang hangat dan tenang untuk mereka saat ini,Atau
Anak-anak Tanah Merapi yang merantau,bagaimanakah gundah mereka saat ini,terpisah
jauh dari sanak saudara.
Tak terbayang olehku gundah dan galau hati mereka..
Aku beranjak bangun dari tempat
tidurku,membasuh wajahku dan berlutut….
Lalu Menuangkan permintaan Pada Tuhan kabut,hitam,suara,Sudahilah
Kemarahan Merapi,buatlah Ia terlelap jangan kau bangkitkan Tuas panas
dikawahnya..
Agar mereka para renta dapat menghabiskan hari dngan senyum
sambil memandang hijau disekitar,agar tidak ada lagi tangis anak yang terpisah
dari hangat sang Ayah dan Bunda,Sudahi Tuhan Sudahkan kemarahan Merapi jangan
ada lagi kabut jelaga atau dentuman yang mengguncang…
Kasihanilah mereka….
Semoga yang Mereka yang tersulut Abu panas merapi kini
tenang…
Tak terasa air mataku jatuh…
Tuhan Sudahi
Kemarahan Merapi..
Maafkan kami yang tidak tahu akan berterimakasih…..
Maafkan aku yang sempat menghujatmu,jangan kau titipkan lagi
kemarahan yang lain…
Sudahilah.Kemarin begitu banyak permintaanku atas ketidakpuaasanku tapi hari ini hanya satu permintaanku Sudahilah kemarahan Merapi biarkan ia tertidur lagi….
PS:Untuk teman-temanku anak Merapi jangan Hentikan Doa dan pengharapan,debu Merapi akan terbang menjauh dan menghilang..Yakinkan akan ada senyum ketika kalian datang....
Give Me Freedom !
I don't know how many times must I say these words.
If I get bored in a compulsion is so please no more coercion to me give me a freedom.
So I know the way to a life of me.
I'm Tired of the trap of ignorance, blindness, resignation, lie.
I'm Tired of the trap of ignorance, blindness, resignation, lie.
I Don't Want To mention all of this.For who you listen to me please help me.
I'm just a girl Who is dying and May soon die.T
his is not a command, just a request for help.
Cuz I Don't Want to die in ignorance, darkness, Hypocrisy, the lies so I beg please help I tell Them I just want a life of freedom.
I don't want my death wound by carnal ignorance,I want to die in a light fragrance.
I hope this one will deliver their cuz I have a long tongue-tied,to say I want to be
free and freedom will bring calm my soul.
I'm just a girl Who is dying and May soon die.T
his is not a command, just a request for help.
Cuz I Don't Want to die in ignorance, darkness, Hypocrisy, the lies so I beg please help I tell Them I just want a life of freedom.
I don't want my death wound by carnal ignorance,I want to die in a light fragrance.
I hope this one will deliver their cuz I have a long tongue-tied,to say I want to be
free and freedom will bring calm my soul.
Mendadak cewek !
Ho..ho…ho..
Kenapa ya aku mendadak mellow yellow jellow g jelas gini…
Hu..hu.. gak Anggi bangeeettttt..:p
Bawaannya sensi bangetttttttttttt..masak gara-gara itu aja mau
nangis its so crazzzzzzzzzzzy. Padahal biasanya gak kayak gini….
Kenapa ya..?
Kayaknya kemarin-kemarin aku makannya bener gak ada makan makanan
yang melipat gandakan kadar kesensitifan..Tapi tiba2 kok gini ya…
Hu..hu.. its so Freakin I hate I hate….
Aduh aku kenapa jadi cewek beneran ya…..
Ini karena apa sih…?sebebebenarnya..?
Hormon apa sih yang meningkat ampe jadi kayak gini..?
QUEEN YOU TAKE MY BREATH AWAY
Oooh oooh take it take it all away
Oooh ooh take my breath away
Oooh ooh yoooo take my breath away
Look into my eyes and you'll see Im the only one
You've captured my love stolen my heart
Changed my life
Every time you make a move you destroy my mind
And the way you touch
I lose control and shiver deep inside
You take my breath away
You can reduce me to tears with a single sigh
Ev'ry breath that you take
Any sound that you make is a whisper in my ear
I could give up all my life for just one kiss
I would surely die if you dismiss me from your love
You take my breath away
So please don't go
Don't leave me here all by myself
I get ever so lonely from time to time
I will find you anywhere you go
I'll be right behind you
Right until the ends of the earth
Ill get no sleep until I find you
To tell you that you just take my breath away
I will find you anywhere you go
Right until the ends of the earth
I'll get no sleep until I find you
To tell you when Ive found you
I love you
Take my breath take my breath ... away
‘Look at my eyes slowly listen to My heart the phrase'
When I was cornered in a one that plugs right in to me.
Who is my defender?
Are the defenders to myself?
Like them,like him,like her.
So false if I have envy in my heart.
I admit this is a my biggest mistake but it will never exist if they gave me a chance and trust.
If I try to recall, I never mis-use of all opportunities that have been held for me.I follow all,I obey all, obey me even though it conflicts with what already exists in my heart.
But I never got the reward, rather than return for a gift or keep all of my desires.
But it is just reward 'Look at my eye slowly listen to my heart the phrase'
only that I'm sure you will understand the feelings and why I am.You said I don’t understand an option, dreams, goals, perseverance, trust, honesty.
How I would understand if there is a chance for me did not you give me the way .
And now you say if I myself was a stupid, narrow-minded.
Do you know will cause?
Cuz I'm too long confined within the confines of that you gave to me, too long you let myself stuck in the lines of rules that makes me stupid.when will you realize ?
Do not realize about that ?
You never asked if I bowed sluggish.
There is only an if I'm wrong,if I find something bad there is never a warm embrace when I make mistakes.Only a painful punishment my heart and feelings that I get from all that.
If I do my best?thousands of praise,when you give a gift that's not what I want.
My wish 'Look at my eyes slowly listen to my heart the phrase''
That's it, is that are too heavy?
And now I'm too tired, just crying and getting stupid from day to day.
Cuz I feel just a compulsion that made me even more stiff and numb slowly.
And when did you guys going to realize my wish ..
Is if I commit suicide and left a letter containing what I feel towards you for this?
If you also do not realize maybe I'll do it?although my desire not I get it but at least I no longer be in a restraint, confinement,the lines of rules that makes me ignorant .
At least I felt was just cold and stiff if I commit suicide is no longer the sense that ripped my heart.
My desire on both ends meet ‘Look at my eyes slowly listen to my heart the phrase' Only that
DEAD BY SUNRISE LET DOWN
And the tears fall like rain
Down my face again
All the words you wouldn't say
And the games you played
With my unfoolish heart
Oh I should have known this from the start
Oh the winter and spring
Going hand in hand
Just like my love and pain
How the thought of you cuts deep within the vein
Brand new skin stretched across scared terrain
I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live that life again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
So I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live my lies again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
Oh..
All those years down the drain
Love was not enough when you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart
'Cause I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live that life again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
So I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live my lies again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
Oh...
I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live that life again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
So I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live my lies again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
Down my face again
All the words you wouldn't say
And the games you played
With my unfoolish heart
Oh I should have known this from the start
Oh the winter and spring
Going hand in hand
Just like my love and pain
How the thought of you cuts deep within the vein
Brand new skin stretched across scared terrain
I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live that life again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
So I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live my lies again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
Oh..
All those years down the drain
Love was not enough when you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart
'Cause I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live that life again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
So I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live my lies again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
Oh...
I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live that life again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
So I don't wanna be let down
I don't wanna live my lies again
Don't wanna be lead down the same old road
COLDPLAY LOST
Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing stops
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing stops
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
TWILIGHT
Here she sat quietly in the lonely prison ..
There was
nowhere the girl to run and complain if She is shivering in cold solitude.
Only by looking at the twilight she spent days, lonely, maybe death.
She just a part of the old classic stories that bemoan the dim solitude.
Only by looking at the twilight she spent days, lonely, maybe death.
She just a part of the old classic stories that bemoan the dim solitude.
Surely you already have very often heard this story?
But surely you rarely know if this is a grim reality.
Here it is not a fairy tale about the princess.
But a girl who far from the warm caress the
beloved people.
Here it is
in a reality that want to fight but not able to fight.
Just waiting and waiting for seconds, hours,
days, years for which there was an appropriate time to pour it all her story in
a warm hug his father and mother ...
Just
kneel, kneeling in the cold-wrenching for God to hear all the outpouring of the
heartof the girl when his twilight of the soon moved away from her..
Just an ordinary but poignant lament that
would be out of a sense of the ordinary.
Twilight only you are the same form with
her, not too bright in the glare of light nor too dark shrouded in dark ..
Covert your color between dark and bright like her who disguise
themselves in color so no one knows his heart groans ...
Only twilight understand why she was crying when her night is
coming ...
Only by understanding the whole series of twilight her story ..
HOMESICK
As I write this.
It
feels a bit cramped my breath because I was fighting back tears.I miss home.
Fly with my father, mother, sister, brother, my brother and of course my nephew.
Miss you guys.But what about to say we are separated by large distances.An oath I want to cry but for what? My longing will not treat on you.
I better call them rather than turn into a sissy girl. I don’t want it.
Oh God why my vacation so long it feels.I really miss going to the house.Eating together, sharing stories and a lot of things we used to do together.
Actually I don’t really like in this situation.
Fly with my father, mother, sister, brother, my brother and of course my nephew.
Miss you guys.But what about to say we are separated by large distances.An oath I want to cry but for what? My longing will not treat on you.
I better call them rather than turn into a sissy girl. I don’t want it.
Oh God why my vacation so long it feels.I really miss going to the house.Eating together, sharing stories and a lot of things we used to do together.
Actually I don’t really like in this situation.
Cuz I'm definitely more sensitive to more easily
offended.
So for my friends sorry me if I changed to make you annoyed or a little bit strange to me ...
But I promise if I can overcome this feeling I'm going back into Anggi ...
So for my friends sorry me if I changed to make you annoyed or a little bit strange to me ...
But I promise if I can overcome this feeling I'm going back into Anggi ...
Perhaps the uneasy feeling that some day it sticks to me cuz I miss you all.
But for all of you who became my love, I just wanted to write a bit about, maybe if you read will know will I miss you all.
But for all of you who became my love, I just wanted to write a bit about, maybe if you read will know will I miss you all.
For my dad.
The world's most patient man I have ever known Take care of your health, do not be too much weight on our minds, your children. We all love you. We know though rarely heard words of love from your mouth. But we know from behind your glasses there's a million love for us, your children may often make you annoyed, angry. Daddy, Anggi fine here just so heavy with longing.
Missed when I ask you to feed me a meal (hi.. Hi .. hi ..).Fly when we discuss the book Agatha Christie and Gibran or talk about poetry that I make. You always said my work good.
Daddy I miss you and love you as long.
To my Mom.
Mom, I also miss you as much as I miss my father and others. I apologize if yesterday I did not want to talk to you. The biggest sin that I do. I am so sorry for everything.
Whatever happens you're still my mother.
hmmmm by the way I miss your cooking. Here there is no great cuisine like your cooking.
I also miss when we talked at the time I could not fall asleep.
To My sister.
Women who I think is a very rigid. strongly with all forms of matter. The always patient with me being spoiled and cranky.
I’ m so sorry my sista for all the tantrums that make you busy.I love you.
To my brother and my lil bro ..
I miss you guys too. Miss when we watch football, watching wrestling and stay up until dawn. Both of you successfully make my insomnia worse.
And managed to make me watch wrestling. if you own me a little afraid to watch it.
For Yuda do not forget to learn the closer the final exam is the best show for us, my lil bro
And lastly for nephew sister.
Auntie miss you ...miss disturb you, mocking you miss, miss with your ravings ..
To all my family, thank you for your love and attention on me ..
You guys are making me feel so rich in love. Because you are my love.
Sorry for my selfishness, childish, stubborn and all ha that makes you mad I'm so sorry.
But in my heart I love you guys and irreplaceable by anything else.
Auntie miss you ...miss disturb you, mocking you miss, miss with your ravings ..
To all my family, thank you for your love and attention on me ..
You guys are making me feel so rich in love. Because you are my love.
Sorry for my selfishness, childish, stubborn and all ha that makes you mad I'm so sorry.
But in my heart I love you guys and irreplaceable by anything else.
Linkin Park She Couldn't
Won't be long till everybody knows.
I've seen her smiling,
The sunlight shining for her now.
She couldn't stay here,
She knows you won't let her down.
You know she couldn't stay here with you.
You know she had to go.
Even though she couldn't stay here with you,
You know you're not alone.
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
She knew she had to go all along.
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
I've seen her shining,
The sunlight's crying for her now.
She wouldn't stay here,
She knows you won't let her down.
You know she couldn't stay here with you.
You know she had to go.
Even though she couldn't stay here with you,
You know you're not alone.
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
She knew she had to go all along.
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
She knew she had to go all along.
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(You know she couldn't stay here with you)
She knew she had to go all along.
(You know she had to go)
I've seen her smiling,
The sunlight shining for her now.
She couldn't stay here,
She knows you won't let her down.
You know she couldn't stay here with you.
You know she had to go.
Even though she couldn't stay here with you,
You know you're not alone.
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
She knew she had to go all along.
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
I've seen her shining,
The sunlight's crying for her now.
She wouldn't stay here,
She knows you won't let her down.
You know she couldn't stay here with you.
You know she had to go.
Even though she couldn't stay here with you,
You know you're not alone.
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
She knew she had to go all along.
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
She knew she had to go all along.
(Won't be long till everybody knows)
No matter what you think you did wrong,
(You know she couldn't stay here with you)
She knew she had to go all along.
(You know she had to go)
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