What's most scary thing in your life?

You:.................

Me: If I cans not eat and & drink, don't find food & drinks and I'm Afraid if the most Important thing in my life didn't exist anymore .LOL

Coldplay Trouble

Oh no, I see,
A spider web is tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I'd said.

Oh no, what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
So I turn to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

And I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
And oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

Oh no, I see,
A spider web and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here am I in my little bubble,

Singing I, never meant to cause you trouble,
And I, never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

Chris Cornell Scream

Take a minute to tell you right
And you can say what you want
Turn around every night
So now you're always going off
Doesn't matter what I done
Or if I even crossed the line
Is that the hollar going for blood
Girl, it doesn't have to be a fight

Throwing out the blame when you know it ain't my fault
Messing with my brain when you want to see me fall
There may come a time when I don't bother you at all
It isn't my call, it isn't my call

Hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?

[There's no need to scream, baby
I'm standing right in front of your face
Why?
I know sometimes we don't get along
So Chris sing the second verse to you
Like this]

Take a minute to tell you now
Don't have to raise my tone
Take the level and bring it down
I just want you to know
I got no trouble with what you said
I don't even think you're wrong
It's how you say it
You lose your head
Girl I'm standing right in front of you

Throwing out the blame when you know it ain't my fault
Messing with my brain when you want to see me fall
There may come a time when I don't bother you at all
It isn't my call, it isn't my call

Hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?

Silence is golden
I used to think that silence was golden

Hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?
I say hey, why you keep screaming at the top of your head?

Silence is golden
I used to think that silence was golden

Linkin Park The Messenger

 When you feel you're alone
Cut off from this cruel world
Your instincts telling you to run
Listen to your heart
Those angel voices
They'll sing to you there'll be a guide back home

When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind
It keeps us kind

When you've suffered enough
And your spirit is breaking
Your growing desperate from the fight

Remember you're loved
And you always will be
This melody will bring will bring you right back home

When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind
When Life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind

 

LOVE

They say LOVE is blind.

I think LOVE is not blind but the cause of a blind person ... 

Leave It Alone

I slowly had to learn sincere and try to forget something that I think is best .
Let them be happy and I let it just be quiet and try to heal the painful wounds that are in the heart .
Let me cry but they smile.
Let me do for them.
This may be the way god to me.
just let me willingly, I resigned, I'm sincere.

DILEMMA !

I have tried to not be a coward.
But there is another side that thanks to my heart if I say what I think and that I buried all this time I was a dissident, rebel, don’t know the rules .
But if you do not say I feel sick and I don’t know me will like what ...
I was numb slowly if kept silent and like the girl locked in ignorance.
I'm confused ...
If I honestly couldn’t be labeled a hypocrite, a liar.
If honest will be labeled ungrateful ...

So what should I do ..?
Should I continue to be quiet and being labeled as a moron who just follow a command Or show what there is of me even though I'm sure I will not be accepted .
But is not I've been just friends in a compulsion and perhaps they had been forced to accept me .
I dunno ...
Why would I be present in the difficult position .
Why am I enforced the options are on two sides of the blade if I choose one of them I would have wound .
maybe I'm blind cuz they can’t see the beautiful side of the dark side may also be too idiot cuz I couldn’t tell from the beginning. or maybe I'm dumb for not being able to say..

'I LIKE THIS AND I  DON’T LIKE THAT'

'I WANT TO BE IS NOT THAT'

I DON’T LIKE HERE I WANT THERE'

I'm a loser, no spirit, no cleverness cuz it was too long trapped.
Too long bowed obediently without knowing the truth but if nobody can see my folly because of compulsion ?

is there something they know will make my situation ?
Until when I was still in ignorance and compulsion ?

Simak

Baca secara fonetik

WEIRD FEELING !

Sunday 31 October celebration of halloween.
Hmmmm somehow I feel very strange, I feel terrible.
Not cuz I think Michael Myers come and kill me or cuz Freddy Krudger get into my dream and will take my soul with ugly nails.
Not that I feared them,
But I don't know what causes it ...
Nor for the mishap that happened to me days ago on Monday that made me feel a little traumatized by the sound the horn ...
gzzzzzzzzzzzzzttttttttt but I think it can lead to ..............


What will happen to me?
My head hurts my heart fear!

God help answer whether the sign that I felt this weird feeling.

UNTUK MEREKA

Patah sayapnya….

Hilang Putihnya…

Tak mewangi lagi jiwanya..

Bagai putih terbalur hitam jiwanya kini..

Bukan lagi Malaikat..

Bukan pula utusan Tuhan..

Hanya seorang hamba sahaya yang kelam lumuran hidupnya…

Tak mengertikah Ia akan arti dari dosa….

Wahai Malaikat…

Kenapa sangat suram catatanmu….

Inilah penggalan dari seorang hamba…

Yang dulu dipuja..

Tapi kini dihina…

Begitu singkat takdir indah…

Tak pernah ada yang menerka..

Kapan Ia datang,kapan Ia pergi dan kapn Ia kembali…

Tak pernah ada yang mengira…

Bukanlah sebuah bohong..

Akan hal ini…

Tapi inilah nyata..

Bahwa jika tergenggam baik dalam kanan maka Buruk akan menyusup kedalam….

Bukan pula ingin menjadi seorang rabi yang ingin memberi petuah dalam puisi..

Hanya berbagi..

Buat para mereka yang tegak diatas sana..

Ingatlah akan janji syurga jangan kau menepati dalam nyata neraka tua..

Tak ada yang menerka apa jadinya..

Bila kalian ada dibawah..

Dan kami diatas sana….

AMBIGU

I'm sick

I'm in a very dark world

I'm in pain

I had trouble breathing

I was difficult to see

I can not feel the touch of

I do not have tears

I've wasted

 I wanted to scream with my hoarse voice

I have very pale

I'm almost numb

I'm in solitude that I have I created

I do not have happiness

I'm dying

I want to die in the cold .......

RASA..............

Aku berjalan sendiri ragu dalam seribu Tanya…

Apakah aku ini….???

Mengapa selalu dalam dan berbentuk sepert ini…

Selalu dan selalu kurang akan sesuatu…

Selalu bingung dalam memilih bayang untuk tempat mengadu…

Selalu akan takut,,,

Selalu akan menyerah dan ingin berlalu…

Apa…?

Apakah ini selalu akan menjadi bagianku..?

Pilu jika malam mulai menyentuh..

Sedih jika Pagi mulai berlabuh..

Getir ketika siang mulai merapuh…

Akankah ada sebuah rasa yang membuatku…

Tak bertanya lagi..

Akan ada sebuh rasa yang membuatku tak menggurat kecewa….

Akan ada sebuah rasa yang menyisiri rasa penat yang melanda…

Jika ada sampaikan nafasku pada rasa itu…

Tunjukan bintang dalam kelam malam agar ia aku tahu..

Sinarka matahari agar aku tak bias dalam sebuah rasa yamg semu…

KAMU....!!

Aku diam bukan karena aku dungu..

Aku tertunduk bukan karena aku malu..

Aku menangis bukan karena ragu..

Aku membisu bukan karena gagu..

Aku diam hanya ingin membuatmu tahu..

Akan bosannya aku dengan tingkahmu...

Selalu berubah dalam jam,menit,bahkan detik..

Hingga aku tak mengenali kamu...

Sadarkan dirimu..

sebelum Ku lelah dan jauh dalam bayangmu...

Sebelum ku Berteriak aku tak ingin kamu..!

Sadarkan dirimu..

sebelum semuanya menjadi debu...

Yang menyatu dalam sesal tak menentu

PAGI

Pagi......
Dingin
Sejuk..
Mendayu-dayu...
Sedikit beku bukan dia tapi aku....
Kaku tergurat kencang kelat diwajahku..


Pagi...
AKU luluh lantak dalam lunglai tak berperisai....
Lelah..
Lelah inginku terlelap dalam satu nafas.....


Pagi...
Seharusnya ini ku awali...
Bukan aku akhiri dengan hasrat yang mati...
Jelas...
Samar...
Kemudian hilang dari segala...


Pagi...
Berkabut kusut nan muram rupaku ini..
Takut terancam akan kehilangan matahari....
Dan terancam diambang mati....


Pagi...
Hampir hilang waktumu kini...
Aku masih terdongak dalam misteri
Mengapa aku ini...?
Sebagian rasa telah mati..
Dibawa pergi penyair yang iri hati....


Pagi...
Masihkah engkau setia menemuiku esok hari...?
Masihkah ada rasa untukku ini...?
Tak pernah ku tahu jawab untuk ini......

WE BLIND

Sometimes bored with everything ...
exhausted with laughter ..
tired of the lonely and alone ...
tired with dark color and light ...
whether what he was thinking ...
until the heart is never satisfied with the creator ...
Always complaining ...
Always grumble ..
Always suspicious ..
Always wanted to win and never want to lose ...
Always want the best but dirty ...
Always want to control everything ...

But it could all turn directions ...
If not strong ...

But here we are ...
These are our faces ..
without sin but very stained ...

Always with no one but always tarnish the name ...

Always speak the truth .. but really blind to the right ..
Yes we are a people blind to the hypocritical ...
Want to distinguish the color of the world ...

THE HIDE

I ran away ..
No matter how sore my feet by rose thorns that pierce my feet ..
I covered my body with a shabby coat ..
Far ..
keep away from them is my desire ....
Almost my death when the escape ...

Is my fear actually ..???
Incandescence sin or I was too vile and ugly in the eyes of them ..
With it I'm afraid ..
I ran from his hands ...
Let them never knew what I feared ...
Suffice it knows my heart and mind ..
Let them ask ...
Let them feel ...
Let them laugh ...


I just want to get away from his eyes ..
I just want to let go of his hand ...
I just wanted to come out in a circle that is so hot ...
I just want to be free ..
Without paradise .
Or a dark hell ....
Far ....
and far away ..
Until my breath is only measured by seconds ..
But why am I getting closer towards it ...

Who ..?
Who are you ..?Why are you in my shadow...?
Not far enough I'm hiding ...??
I just pursed my body ...
Under the oak tree ..
hope you don't  find me ..

I AM CONFUSED

Sometimes I was confused when I saw this face in the mirror ...

Sometimes this face blushed pink ..

Sometimes it was white like a piece of lives that have been lost ...

Sometimes snoring without blushing bright ang ...

Sometimes too out of shape ....

Sometimes I don't know where the most appropriate place for me ....

I do not know where ....

I feel lonely at times crowded ...

I feel lively when I'm lonelyI was never a form that ...

Somehow I was ...

Too naive or too stupid with all there ....

I'm confused put my feet ...

What should be left or right

I'm confused should reach what ...??

Because I'm afraid I reach a beautiful dream ...

So the nightmare that clasped ...I

never knew what was inside me ...

I'm just a dwarf girl ..

that is too long in the noise made me deaf to live in around me ..

I'm just weird girlwho have been blind because 

it was too dazzled by the light that poisons my cornea ...

I don't know if it will recover ...

I don't know ....

I don't know

I don't understand ....

I'm confused ...

INGIN KAMU...

Tak Tahu apa yang akan ditulis..

Tak tahu apa yang dikata dan dicerita..

Tak tahu apa yang terjadi dan yang akan dijadikan umpama..

Apakah ini semua aku yang rasa..

Hanya meriap-riap awan..

Hanya membias-bias hujan..

Berat sungguh berat drama nya ta ini..

Apakah kamu tahu ini yang kurasa ?

Apakah ada bantu hangatmu untuk bingungku ini ?

Ini bukan sendu ku untuk mu..

Ini hanya sebuah pesan aku ingin kamu saat ini....

Bukan untuk menjadi labuhan terakhirku..

Hanya inginku kau jawab bingungku atas suaramu yang palsu..

KIAN DEKAT

Kian dekat aku semakin sekarat..

Kiad dekat aku semakin pucat

Kian dekat aku semakin terinjak..

Kian dekat aku semakin sekarat..

Kain dekat aku semakin penat..

Kian dekat aku semakin tak beranjak

Kian dekat langkahku semakin lekat..

Kian dekat aku semakin tak bersemangat..

Kian dekat aku semakin ingin tiarap..

Kian dekat asaku semakin meriap..

Kian dekat aku semakin jauh dari pusat..

Kian dekat aku kesumat...

Kian dekat aku aku bagai Mayat....